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This Simple Chorus

By Collin Zweigle

 

I write to you from the warmth of one of my favorite coffee shops in Rochester on a blustery Thursday following the infamous windstorm that blew through our region leaving felled trees, damaged homes and vehicles, and power outages in its wake. I feel prompted to write about storms. You, the congregation of Koinonia Fellowship are not unfamiliar with the story of health issues, long distance support, and love that is the life of Collin Zweigle and Megan Farrell. When I think about our life and I think about the storms we have already endured even in our early 20’s it can become quite overwhelming. I share this with you because I believe in the concept of vulnerability. Vulnerability is a key component of communion (the fellowship of the believers). The schedule of doctors visits seems endless, the worry of the financial strain needed medications will cause in the future is looming. How do you go to graduate school and provide for your family? These are just a few of the questions and issues we find ourselves facing in this portion of a storm that has waves of intensity and moments of calm, but never really goes away. 

This is the reality of life. We have our doubts, our struggles, and our questions. We have the moments where we think and even cry out, “Oh, God where are You now?” I think of the writings of David, when in great moments of depression and fear he would cry out to God. Recently I have been finding comfort and encouragement in the intense and often “angry sounding” music of rapper NF. This simple chorus: 

“Oh Lord, oh Lord, do You see us down here?

Oh Lord, oh Lord” 

Backed by soothing piano chords and synth sounds this music just meets me in those moments. 

Later on in the bridge of the song these lyrics hit me pretty hard:

“You see the same God that you saying might not even exist

Becomes real to us, but only when we dying in bed

When ya healthy it's like, we don't really care for Him then

Leave me alone God, I'll call you when I need you again

Which is funny, everyone will sleep in the pews

Then blame God for our problems like He sleeping on you

We turn our backs on Him, what do you expect Him to do?

It's hard to answer prayers when nobody's praying to you”

So often I find myself forgetting to pray in those moments when everything is going well, and then something happens, or I am reminded of the weight that these medical struggles are on Megan’s heart and mind and I get woken up, reminded to pray. The lyrics of this song, and the realization of my own patterns and habits make me wonder how much easier would it be if I just maintained a regular, steady connection with the One who knows me best and loves me most. I don’t want there to have to be some serious situation that reminds me to pray, I want to just pray anyways. I want to be praying already and then, just continue the conversation with the King. He’s always listening, why don’t we talk to him more? 

Recently I have been challenged to go into the secret place and to let that fuel my worship leading and my ministry. Will you go there with me? I challenge you to find that secret place where you meet with God naturally and comfortably. Start there and then continue the conversation as your day goes on. This is one of my goals for the Spring. Consider making it yours. 

 

 



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